Pop producer and songwriter Charli XCX was discovered in 2008 after posting songs on Myspace. She returned to the makeshift bedroom studio this April to record her latest album, how i’m feeling now, over five weeks while quarantining in Los Angeles. The album was released this morning, and it perfectly demonstrates Charli’s aptitude for music production. how i’m feeling now echoes the current emotional climate of much of the world: bubbling over with disquiet, seemingly ready to reach a panicked apex at any moment. The production of this album perfectly demonstrates Charli’s skill at her craft. The songs are intricate and densely layered; they sound as though they have been laboured over for months, not pieced together in mere weeks.
The first track is called ‘pink diamond.’ This is somewhat of a misnomer because the song has a very different atmosphere than implied from the title. It is not sweet, pure, light-heartedness or radiant brilliance; the song is anxiety-inducing, laden with synths which imitate white noise in their constancy. The song is a barrage of distracting, haunting sounds, and it is excellent. The unsteady beats in this track perfectly reflect the unpredictable times we are living in. ‘pink diamond,’ is a standout song on the album.
‘forever,’ is a glitchy pop song which is heavily reminiscent of Imogen Heap. Robotic-sounding vocal layering pervades the repetitious track. The production here sound effortless. The corrosive beats sound as though they could dissolve your headphones as you listen, entranced. ‘7 years’ is another song which sounds Heap-inspired. It is calmer than the majority of the songs on the album.
‘claws’ and ‘c2.0’ are industrial, glitch pop tracks. ‘claws’ is grinding, with a beat that eerily mirrors a pickaxe hitting rock. ‘c2.0’ sounds like the mechanical soundtrack to a dystopian novel. The electronic voices infused in these tracks present Charli as, arguably, a posthumanist composer. ‘enemy’ also comes from the darker side of the album. A heavy, ominous bass and sombre drive the song.
‘detonate’ is soothing and nostalgic, with mellow accompaniment. However, the lyrics present a dark, bitter edge: “I’m about to detonate… I don’t trust myself.” Similarly, ‘i finally understand’ is a catchy pop song with pensive, sorrowful lyrics.
The final three songs on the album are buzzing with energy, like a crackling fire. ‘party 4 u’ crescendos from a quiet intro to a hopeful, hefty track with an intense and powerful bassline. ‘anthems’ is a fierce, up-tempo club banger which is nostalgic at the moment while clubs are closed. It is also relatable in current times, with lyrics such as “I’m so bored… lose myself in a tv show” and “I just want to go to parties… want to feel the heat from all the bodies.” The final song on the album, ‘visions,’ has a heavy-hitting chorus which will be perfect for a large crowd at a club or festival. The outro is extremely restless and uneasy, with fizzing, droning synth and a determined, trance-producing kickdrum.
The album is a fizzing, frothing collection of syrupy synth and booming bass. On first listen, the uncertain and challenging nature songs brought out my reflective side and I began to contemplate the erratic situation we are currently experiencing due to Covid-19. However, the album ends on a high and I found myself missing nights out in Dublin, packed into a dark, crowded pub, listening to live music. For now, the Instagram and Facebook gigs are a welcome substitute, but I eagerly await the day when we can once again experience live music in Dublin.